Isabel stared at me for a long time as if reading my mind. She took a cigarette from the table and lit it. She leaned back and watched the smoke curl up.
Do you want me to leave first? I asked
no
I stare at her silently and admire that graceful lines of her nose and jaw.
Are you in love with Larry?
You are such a pig. I’ve never loved anyone in my life.
Then why marry gray?
I have to get married. Gray chased me infatuated with my mother and asked me to marry him. Everyone said that I should break off my engagement with Larry when I came. I am still gray. You don’t know how considerate he is. There should be no gentler and more caring person in the world than him. He seems to have a bad temper, but he is obedient to me. When we pay back the money, he always asks me what I want and then buys it to give me pleasure. I said once that our sailboat would be able to travel around the world. If it weren’t for the Great Depression, he would definitely buy it.
It’s so nice. It sounds so unreal, I said
Our life was once very happy, and I will thank him for giving me a happy day in my life.
I looked at her and said nothing.
I don’t think I really love him, but even if I don’t have love, I can still get by. My heart yearns for Larry, but I won’t be upset if I don’t see him. Remember you told me that it’s not hard to bear the pain caused by love across the 3,000-mile ocean, right? I thought it was sour at the time, but it was true when I thought about it later.
It pains you to see Larry, so don’t meet him.
But the pain is very happy, and you know his personality. He will suddenly disappear on a whim, just like there is no one behind the sun, and it will take years to see him again.
Have you ever thought about divorcing Gray?
I have no reason to divorce him.
But American women really want a divorce, which should not be an excuse.
She smiled.
Why do you think they want a divorce?
Don’t you know what American women ask of their husbands? British women will ask for housekeepers.
Isabel threw her head back and I was really worried that she would twist her neck.
Because gray is not good at talking, are you the only one who gets along?
If you make a mistake, I’ll interrupt immediately. I think his behavior is very touching and he knows how to love others. You can tell how much he loves you by looking at your expression, and he loves children more than you do.
I guess you’ll say I’m a terrible mother.
On the contrary, I think you are great. Mothers bring their daughters up well and happily, and pay attention to whether they eat and drink regularly. You teach them to behave, read to them and pray. When they get sick, you immediately see a doctor and take good care of them, but you won’t hold them in your hands like Gray.
There is no need to come. I am an ordinary person and treat them as ordinary people. Being a mother and treating her children as the only focus of life is harmful to children.
You’re right.
They adore me just as much.
I also found that they regard you as an example, elegant, beautiful and temperament, but they are more relaxed when they are with Gray. Now they really admire you, but they love Gray the most.
He is really lovable.
This response is clever. Isabel’s great advantage is that even the naked facts will not become angry at present.
After the Great Depression, Gray was hit hard. He worked late into the night for several weeks. I often waited at home in fear that he would shoot himself in the forehead because he felt it. You know that everyone trusted their father. He never doubted their honesty and judgment. It was a small matter that we lost all our money. What he was most worried about was that those who believed in others also lost badly. He felt that it was time to see the signs. He was very responsible. No matter how I advised him.
Isabel took a lipstick from her bag and painted her lips.
But I have to say that this is not the case. After the Great Depression, our property was left on the farm. I think Gray will have to leave Chicago before he can have a chance to rebuild. I gave my child to my mother and went to the farm with him to live there, but we never went there alone. Gray was very good at shooting, but he was not in the mood to hunt. He used to go to the swamp alone and spend hours watching wild birds. He often rowed around in the river with light gray cattails on both sides and blue sky on both sides. Those rivers were as blue as the Mediterranean. Every time I come back, I seldom say that it’s wonderful, but I can see that he feels beautiful, vast and quiet, which deeply touched him. Just before sunset, the swamp light is really charming. He often stares at his happiness there, and he can ride a horse far away to some desolate and remote forests. In maeterlinck’s play, the scene is gloomy and lonely, which is a bit strange. Every spring is about half a month, dogwood is full of oak trees, and the green leaves are accompanied by Spanish moss and covered with white lilies. Gray says no. I felt it in my heart, but I must have been deeply moved. He was personally intoxicated by the pleasant spring scenery. Well, I know I’ve made a mess, but I was so happy that I wanted to cry when I saw Gray, a big guy, being inspired by such pure and beautiful feelings.
Isabel was a little emotional when she said this. She took out a small handkerchief and carefully wiped the crystal tears in her eyes.
You’re exaggerating, aren’t you? I smiled and said, I think you’ve projected your thoughts and feelings on Gray.
How can I observe him without these qualities? You know that I am realistic in everything, and my feet have to step on the concrete sidewalk. My eyes do see the hat, leather coat, diamond bracelet and gold cosmetic box in the window along the road, otherwise I won’t be really happy.
I laughed, and we were silent for a long time, and then she brought up the previous topic.
I will never divorce gray. We’ve been through too much together, and he can’t live without me. Although it’s flattering, it makes people feel worse.
What’s the situation
She glanced at me with a mischievous look, and I thought she was speculating on my reaction to what she said.
He’s very good in bed. We’ve been married for ten years, but he’s still passionate about me. Didn’t you say that men itch for five years? Well, I think you’re talking nonsense. Gray’s desire for me has never changed since he got married. In this respect, he can satisfy me. I may not think it just by looking at my appearance, but I actually have a great demand
You underestimate me. Of course I can see it.